Dogs 2010

ASSUMED STABILITY
(2/19/10)


tax time
again

my wife
looking at past
mortgage interest
statements
comments
that I have been
in this house
for seven
years
now

seven
years

that is
the longest
that I have lived
anywhere
anytime
adult
or
child

my neighbors
today
have never seen
me drunk

arrested

yelling and screaming

throwing garbage in the street

parking in the yard
because it's closer
to the front door

passed out
in the grass
from the futility
of it all

they
have never seen
the madman

they smile
and wave
when they see me
instead of turning away
and slamming
doors

I take
the forms
from my bride
and realize
at almost two years
this is incredibly
the longest
relationship
that I have
ever
had

that
list of shame
is much longer
and more perverse
than the
previous

she
never knew
the freak
of me

she smiles
and kisses me
never quite believing
the stories
that I tell her

the problem is
of course
is that all
those strange
vile thoughts
are still
bouncing around
in my brain

I have apparently
either gained
the discretion
or lost
the energy
to act
upon them

age does
have its
benefits