Dogs 2008

TERMINAL SOLITUDE
(2/18/08)


no expert
on death
I have
however
been close enough
to have that last breath
fog my glasses
and feel the life
leaving the body
a deflated
mannequin
sadly mimicking
my mother's
sigh

that was it

no great
mystical
transition

just another
bodily function
no more majestic
than a sneeze
a hiccup
or a
bowel movement

I'm sorry
but I was
there

waiting

watching

and there
was nothing

what I did sense
was a total
detachment
from the
everyday world
as she just
slipped away

as important
as I thought
me being there
should be
I knew then
that my presence
was inconsequential

there's only room
for one
to squeeze through
that final
terrible
turnstile

the departed
do not even
look back

they have lived
and the living
are no longer
of any use
to them

all emotion
empathy
and energy
are gone

I
understand that
now

I
am already
there