Dogs 2007

WINDFALL
(1/22/07)


he called
on Friday night
wanting to come over
to make things right
between us

he owed me
money
a large amount
by my standards
and I was glad
to hear from him
for the first time
in many months

an hour later
he was sitting
in my living room
saying that he had come
to make amends
a concept
which I understood
since I had learned it
from him
some six years
earlier

I had "fired" him
as my sponsor
when our business deal
soured last year
after he stopped making
regular repayments
on my loan
to him

friends
family
and now sponsors
are on my list
of people
whom not
to loan money

I had worried
about his sobriety
in the interim
hearing mixed reports
concerning his
troubles with
gambling
and women

I told him
that I was ready
to hear his
solution

he reached
into his pocket
pulling out a thick envelope
from which he extracted
a large stack
of hundred
dollar bills

he counted out
six piles of ten
neatly positioned
in front of me
asking if
that would
square us

I made
one attempt
to find the source
of so much cash
but he wasn't
talking
and glad to get
my money
I wasn't
pressing

he stood
to leave
and we hugged
a program habit
glad that it all
was behind us
and he said that
we should get together
for dinner sometime
before driving off
into the
night

I came back
into the house
and looked
at all
that
money

I counted it
of course

$6,100.00

a tidy sum

he had
apparently
miscounted
one stack

it had been
a long damn time
since I had seen
that much cash
at my disposal
and it made me
a bit nervous

for all
those months
I had been truly worried
about my ex-sponsor's
sobriety

now
taking in
all those big bills
on a Friday night
in America
with all of its
sordid possibilities
I was seriously
worried
about
mine