Dogs 2007

STRANGE VIEW
(2/5/07)


I saw it
just once
22 years ago
it was well
past midnight
on a remote
Alaskan island
but we had
satellite TV
and I had found
a movie channel
to wile away
my watch hours
awake through
the night
alone

it was one
bizarre slice
of cinema
and left
an impression

throughout
my various
stops and transitions
through the next
two decades
I would endure
black and white
flashes of weirdness
sometimes accompanied
by surreal sounds
playing in my head
to remind me
of that perverse
presentation

I often
wondered
if the film
was actually
that disturbing
or if possibly
my own twisted
philosophical
and chemical
predilections
were responsible
for distorting
my memories
into the mind-bending
menagerie of images
spinning
in my head

so I wrote off
the experience
as another demon
of my misspent past
and dismissed
those remembrances
as they periodically
returned

then
one day
I saw it there
on a used
DVD rack
and hesitantly
fingered the case
afraid to actually
pick it up
and take
ownership

what was wrong
with me?

nothing
could be as bad
as I remembered
this movie
to be

I bought it
brought it home
and let it set there
for a few days
until an opportune
Saturday night
arrived

I felt
some trepidation
from the moment
of insertion
either it was truly
a terrible film
or I had
definitely
been a horrible
human being

turns out
that I really
wasn't
that bad

Eraserhead