Dogs 2007

STAGE FRIGHT
(1/30/07)


I shook
I stuttered
I stammered
I sweat profusely
at my receding hairline
to the point
of fogging
my glasses

it was
as ridiculous
as I remember
those oral reports
in high school
to have been
for this once
introverted
adolescent

but this
was different
since in the last
seven years or so
I've been in front
of small
medium
and large crowds
literally hundreds
of times
with barely a hint
of nervousness

last night
the butterflies
were condors of concern
worrying my consciousness
and causing much distress
to my otherwise calm
and collected
demeanor

what
the Hell
was wrong?

when
had I last
felt
so spastic?

oh yes

I remember
now

a year
and a half ago
and
you
were
there
as well

in fact
it was the last time
that I saw you
before
last night

you apparently
have that effect
upon me

I've missed that
exquisite
suffering