Dogs 2007

NO MORE FLOWERS
(7/25/07)


I gave her
everything
with true
feeling
that was
applicable
and proper
to a relationship
cards
candy
poetry
jewelry
flowers
perfume
negligee
fine dining
massage oils
stuffed animals
took her on trips
to meet relatives
and on romantic
getaways
and finally
proposed
with one carat
of her choosing

all of it
even
the ring
she returned
threw away
or ridiculed
in fits
of emotion
and anger

I even
gave some of it
back to her
over the years
only
to have it returned
once again

I quit

we both
lose

she emailed me
today
saying how much
she missed
all those things
that I used
to do
for her
and how she wished
that I would feel
like doing them
again

fuck that

she freed me
from those
caring conventions

she was
a good
teacher

she
taught me
to be quite
happy

alone