Dogs 2007

IN THE BOX
(11/23/07)


at work
on a holiday
an isolated idiot
workbound
by obsession

a few reports
a minimum
of computer maintenance
maybe start the dishwasher
for the crew
then I too
would be out
and about
among the other
revelers

a lie

I would be
homebound
another obsession
enforced solitude
to separate my
sickness
and myself

routine
rallied me
through the morning
except for one
minor irritant
a noisy tower
an indication
of near term
hardware failure
nagging at me
as I continued
my solitary
rounds

each visit
to the suspect machine
gave increasing degrees
of noise
and alarm

finally
I manually stopped
the power supply fan
hoping for the most
simple
of solutions
but the wavering
whine
continued
hinting at something
more serious

shit

now what?

ignore it
I thought
finish everything else
and hope
that it went
away

but no
it persisted
only louder

as
I prepared
to leave
I stood in front
of the contrary computer
adrift
in thoughts
of impending
nuisance

my gaze drifted
to the window
where across the street
I saw yardworkers
round the corner
of the bank building
herding leaves
with leaf blowers
hearing protectors on
to shield their ears
from the sound
and probably
also
from the temperature
in the 20's

I leaned
toward
the glass
allowing some angle
of discernment
between outside
and in
to discover
that the tower
was relatively quiet
by comparison
to din of the men
across the way

they had been
out of sight
earlier
and a bit
quieter
as a result

I hung
my head
fooled
again

but
I did grin
at my own ignorance
and the fact
that I was soon
out the door
unencumbered
with the minimal burdens
of technology
and perceptions

I had leaves
of my own
at home

to rake