Dogs 2007

GRATITUDE
(10/24/07)


thank you

really

I hate
to admit it
but you actually
saved my ass

I had nowhere
else to go
but institutions
or incineration

your patience
and determination
finally gained
my leery
trust
and slowly
very slowly
I attained
through your guidance
a measure of hope
and acceptance

my outlook improved

you then
asked me
to stand
beside the door
through which
you welcomed me
to receive other
such suffering
souls
as payment
from my recovery

it seemed
a reasonable
request
but after years
of earnest attempts
my altruistic endeavors
have left me
questioning
my ability
and my place
among you

you've relieved me
of my obsession
but you cannot
remove
my innate
solitary nature

society
even yours
seems a shallow
theater
of the absurd

to seek
the truth
I leave you
not wanting
to die
but longing
to stop
the lie

thank you

really

but
no thanks

goodbye