Dogs 2007

CINEMOTIONAL
(2/1/07)


I don't
get life
on most
days

maybe
my rabbit ears
are not adjusted
properly

I feel
detached
as if watching
some depressing
made for TV
docu-drama

no flair
no gamble

I have
a television
but primarily
it's the face
of my DVD
player

the movies
I find
are the only things
holding
my interest
of late

I can get
sucked into a plot
in nothing flat

0.0 seconds

even
the anticipation
of sliding that
shiny disk
into the machine
is almost as good
as anything
that I'll see
or hear
in the next
couple of hours

I really
feel these flicks
the frustration
the wonder
the anger
the love
the loss
it's all there
for me
in a way that
my walking-around existence
does not provide
in the least

I'm up
I'm down
with each
passing scene
deep into every
flash
of facial expression
twist
of tortured phrase
and splash
of striking
visual imagery

these things
are not real
yet they
cause me
to feel
as if
they were more

the credits
skip across
the glowing display
and I am left
with the
numbing
vacant
reality of me

and
my world
on the wrong side
of the screen