Dogs 2007

CATFISH AND DR. STRANGELOVE
(4/22/07)


Saturday night
I sit here
eating take-out
and watching
a black and white
black comedy
alone

when
in my life
did I make
that disastrous decision
to forever isolate me
from the company
of others
both
of my kind
and those
wondrous beings
with something different
to offer
in the mundane
monotony
of the everyday?

of course
it was not
just one decision
but a curious collection
of choices made
since childhood
slowly separating
myself
from the crowd
across an
ever broadening
chasm
of understanding

only feeling
complete
when alone
I find the presence
of people
subtracts
from my life force
to the point
that I am faint
and a bit
ill
until
I can
remove myself
from whatever
group dynamic
that has descended
upon me

tonight
I could be
with a woman
no questions asked
for companionship
entertainment
and sexual
satisfaction

instead
I have
hush puppies
and Peter Sellers
an unusual
combination
that pleases me
to no end

besides

I can
always
jack off
later