Dogs 2007

ANOTHER VOW
(12/23/07)


"married?"

she asked
as she tapped
the silver band
on the ring finger
of his left
hand

"in a way
yes"

he almost whispered
under the music

she looked at him
wondering whether
or not
to smile

"OK
let's try this
another
way

when you
get home tonight
will there be a woman
to smell my perfume
the smoke
and wonder
where you've been?"

he continued
to stare off
into the distance

"there's no
woman"

this was easier
to interpret

although
not drinking
he was
fucked up

she frowned
just a bit
of empathy

"then why
the ring?"

he deliberately
turned his head
to look at her
as if
she had just appeared
from another
dimension

"to remind me"

she was used
to talking
in nonspecifics
but he was really
beginning
to piss
her off

"do I have
to ask 'of what?'
or are you
going
to let me
off the hook?"

she didn't mind
if it cost her
any additional tips

she didn't have
to take
anyone's bullshit

he didn't answer
but began to turn
the ring on
his finger
so that a
single word
inscription
was visible

he slowly
held it up
to her face
in the low light
so that she
could see

"dreaming
of better days?"

she asked
after squinting
reading
then understanding

he lowered
his hand
flat to the table

"no

it reminds me
that this"

he rapped
his knuckles
on the table

"and this"

he gently placed
his hand
on hers

"are illusions
but I must
convince myself
that they are real
or lose
my mind"

now
she did
smile

she was
a philosophy major
in life

"honey

I'll give you
reality

either buy me
another drink
or a lap dance
or I'm off
to the next table
the next guy

he laughed

"that
I understand"

before reaching
for his wallet
he looked down
at the ring
as he turned it
back around

IMAGINE