Dogs 2006

KNOWING MY PLACE
(5/7/06)


I skirt
the edges
of daily society
keeping a safe distance
between my twisted perceptions
and the worldly normalities
through which the majority
swim so securely
in inappreciative
comfort

I stay away
from their crowds
any group mentality
losing a bit of cohesiveness
with my peripheral participation
all members present
pointing a blaming finger
in the direction
of the intruder
me

I stay away
from their women
the expected pleasantries
beyond my limited
comprehension
and
my herpes
handicap
not on their list
of expectations
for a lifetime mate
keeping me
untouchable
and alone

I stay away
from their children
being a single man
in his middle 40's
never married
and fitting every
perverted profile available
in the mass media
to warn those
who may be parents
of potential
victims

I stay away
from their social functions
the alcoholic tendencies
bouncing my attentions
between the extremes
never allowing
comfortable conversation
or bantering banalities
to fall easily
from my
tainted tongue

I stay away
from their social responsibilities
being a lowly DUI felon
my name appearing
in even the less
than diligent
background checks
just a minor criminal
yet forever beyond
the scope
of trust

I wave
to them all
from life's perimeter
talking only to their pets
all of whom
at least
seem grateful
for my
attentions

I go
to work
each and every day
to ensure my financial obligations
are timely and accurately met
so at least
monetarily
I am not
a liability

I go
to AA meetings
the only organization
that welcomes my participation
and even requests
my return

I carry
a cremation society
identification card
so that my disposal
will not present an intrusion
upon any sacred
cemetery or
crypt

I stay
on the fringe
of their happy existence
so that I am neither noticed
nor eventually missed
when I finally make
my grateful
departure

so while
I still walk
this selective earth
I will stay in the street
treading not the sidewalks
where the accepted
so easily
live and
play

I
regret
nothing