Dogs 2006

CLUTTER
(12/28/06)


notes
and gnats
of stagnant ideas
buzz my head
as I disturb their nest
of parchment layers
covering the desk
in my bedroom

how
do I sleep
with all this shit
here?

it is
a pitch-pile
of bills
statements
greeting cards
credit card receipts
and many
scribbled fragments
of dubious
poetic thought
the whole
garnering no attention
until the shifting mound
begins to precipitate
an unbalanced overflow
onto the
floor

dust rises
and paper cuts
attack
as I dig into
this disaster
a month and a half
in the making

starting
is the difficult notion
since once in motion
the task seems manageable
second-ticking minutes
taking large bites
out of the bunch
until all file-worthy items
have a home
and throwaways
have been
round-filed
leaving me with
the esoteric etchings
of previous thoughts
now lost

what to do
with them?

deciphering
my childish scrawl
no easy chore
without the benefit
of punctual disposition
so I squint my eyes
to bring the
errant ideas
into focus
but they remain
a blatant blur
diffusing
my efforts

better to concede
conclude the frustration
and scoop them all
into the
trash

then
write about
that